I had planned on writing something everyday, but I kept forgetting or I just didn't feel like it.
Some days I just have 0 things to say. At this point my life revolves around 11 people, only 4 of which I am related to. The other 7, well, we'll come to them later.
I am in the process of sewing pillows which I would like to sell, but I must make sure they are absolutely perfect so that people can be interested in them. I am trying to make a living doing what I am decent at and it doesn't seem to be working. This makes me sad.
As a writer, I am the most critical of myself than I am of my work. I feel my stories are never good and they never will be no matter how often I work on them. I am not perfect when it comes to punctuation and grammar and I do not pretend to be, but I feel comfortable with my writing style. It is myself as a story teller that I am not confident in.
As a "seamstress" I am less critical of myself and more critical of the work. I can work a sewing machine and I am good at sewing by hand. So it is not my ability to sew but my ability to sew along the lines to keep the shape of the item. Which I do eventually get. After all, practice makes perfect.
Why is it different? Why is it the opposite two of the things I like to do?
I've lost so much confidence in my writing that I cant even read half of the things I have written myself. There was a time when I dabbled in fanfiction and I can read those stories over and over and add to them as it I just started writing them yesterday.
But my own...
I cant seem to do it. I have thought of doing it they way I fanfiction is written and posted, one chapter at a time. I am not sure where I can do this though. I have registered for Wattpad, but I am not confident in that. Perhaps maybe I can try a blog like this one. I shall see.
This is it for now.
Hasta.
